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I m reali reali stressed up at the moment. There are tons of works awaiting for me to finish. Sigh! Got projects to finish, have to organize the Physics Week for the skul’s students, have to take care of my academics either .. aikz .. dun know which one to start wif. Actually i felt very hapi instead of grumbling cause just recently i got the latest news tat my grp is entering into FINAL !! yeah… i looked forward the second annoucement since the first annoucemen tat more grps are selected to enter into the final. But then, the second annoucement was not announcing my grp … i thought my hope would come to an end .. but then few days, later got third annoucement .. tat is how my grp got the opportunity to enter final .. hee ..so hapi .. i got to treasure this golden opportunity and get into the GRAND FINAL .. dun wan to waste it alreadi .. little bit scare =_+ .. and there is kinda interesting about today .. there was a class performance put up by class 4G … know wat? there was one student imitate the artist FIR’s singing style … it was so alike .. increadible indeed ..somebody even told me tat he won the first place in the FIR singing competition trashing all the gals who were taking part. WOW .. impressive !! At the end of his performance, he won lots of cheers from the audience who kept shouting "encore" .. i was one of the crazy audience, haha … "_^

Despite all waiting and expectation for early dismissal on Mon, the principal announced that onli tomolo is given earli dismissal around 12 pm !!!! Wat an early dismissal … my lessons end at 1.30pm . That does not make any difference in my opinion … All of the students have been waiting for earli dismissal since last weekends till this morning … but what have they got … sigh .. Almost all of us grumbled and felt unsatisfied with the skul’s decision … After the last announcement during the flag raising, we reali hoped there was a surprise to all of us that the principal changed his mind or some changes in the timetable ..sigh ..waiting for the moon to drop ..haha ..all of us knew in the heart that this was impossible la of course …But what could we do ..sigh .. we juz accepted the FATE lo..aikz ..this is OK for me though i am always monday blue and also hoped there was earlier dismissal on monday ..haha…."_^

Today, my bio teacher was teaching us on the topic "reproduction". She covered the topic "Abortion" as well. She showed the class the digusting pics …. i reali wonder wat the hell got such abortion in the world … the foetus is reali cham la …. the mom r reali terrible … although i know they have some reasons behind in carrying out the abortion … but then … abortion is a terrible attempt … i reali reali reali dun encourage it … they should not resort to it even though they r left wif no other choice …before the foetus r pulled out from the mom’s womb, they r cut into pieces ….. faint … of course their parts r separated in order that the pulling out of the foetus r efficient n easy … … not onli tat, the foetus head is crushed!!! this is to achieve the above purpose too since the skull is crushed too … and before tat the brain is sucked out firstly … yark … how dare they do such thing on a foetus … one- day old foetus is still a human wat … speechless … i reali hope tat abortion can be stopped rite away … from a camp, i juz know tat those who r born r strong in nature … cause there r juz one sperm (after going thru all the difficulties) fertilised the egg lei … so, wat i mean is tat those who r born in this world r caliber in some sense .. the foetus which is the combination of sperm and egg, may be future Einstein …. or Edison perhaps … therefore, we r destroying our future ourselves … so, i plead tat abortion may stop immediately … i dun support abortion!! >_<

Today is Racial Harmony Day. Sec1 - 3 r going to other skuls such as Malay’s skul as well as Indian’s skul … Dun know if their trip was enjoyable or not … I am kinda envy on them .. The sec 4 have to continue their lessons in class … sigh … no half- day either … wat the … nvm la … sec 4 have a great responsibility … so, we have to sacrifice loh …haha.. But then, Boarding Skul held a Racial Harmony Feast. The borders all have had an admirable meal .. buffet . The feast was quite nice … There were all sorts of foods ranging from malays - chinese - indians food … haha .. Besides, there were performances by other skul .. got variety of performances 2 such as performances from chinese orchestra and malay club (using the traditional instruments of course) … as well as dances from 3 diff races and fashion show!! quite great la today … no complain .. "_^

hey, i keep telling myself tat the maths test is going to be OK .. but then i am feeling uneasy after the test .. dun know why .. i did all the Qs with confident .. tat should not be a problem 2 me .. haha .. i m juz like tat .. dun know if i can get rid tat alwaz-tense-emotion from me or not ..lolz .. juz too much adrenaline is flowing in my blood actually .. haha .. suddenly i found tat there is no more colour in my life in singapore anymore … recently, i juz cannot find a topic of discussion wif my frienz online and juz cannot think of anything to blog .. haha .. funny … there is no interesting event happening >_< juz spending the rest of the day > eat > sleep > study …. the casual day is juz finished … sigh .. i juz have to search for fun every day by myself … hope my life will be better soon … o, tomolo is track-and-field final .. hope my skul can be the champion … all the best to the athletes ..cheers 4 ur all though i will not be there in the padang tomolo "_"

Today i received a terrible bad news from my project grp members … sigh … my grp is not entering into Finals …. aikzzz…… how come like tat ?? Tat should be no problem for my grp to enter into finals … haaaiii …. dun know wat to say alreadi … juz accept the fate la … at least i learned something from the project … dun know can continue the project … haha … tomolo ask my mentor… c if there is future for the project .. aikz .. tomolo is maths test .. i can say tat i have confidence in it but not 100 % … at least i have done wat i should do … i have done more than 200 Qs … but tat doesn”t mean tat i will excel in the maths …  i still have to apply everything into my test … baru counted mah … hee .. "_" got to revise somemore before the day ends ….>_<

Today i have been spending my time doing Maths … Actually my target today is to finish all the exerciese in the Maths text book … sigh … the topic is reali too wide … although the topic is juz one word "CALCULUS" … u know? this includes two major topics inside … diffentiation and integration … which also making use of Trigo either … as well as the "angle" topic … sigh … i also have second goal today … is to reach 200 Qs … but then, at the moment i reached onli 171 … haha … later still have time to do .. not yet 12.00pm … lolz … must work hard lo … cause my maths teacher is very very good .. he extended the text as we requested so … so, i should not disappoint him by scoring low, rite … i feel confidence this time tat i can reach A2 … haha … now i announce to the world … dun underestimate me … i won’t be like last time …k, got to do maths alreadi "_"

Haha .. know wat … in my opinion onli ar.., i think tat moment was the most confident I could be in giving presentation in my life … haha … Tat’s quite true .. i spoke quite fluently .. i din miss out the necessary important points which i used to be … i was a bit paniked onli this time ( i used to be very very panic …. my legs and hands would trembling) … i think i will attribute my success to a book called " The Best Presentation" . … this is a good book … i recommend it .. It will definitely help u in perfoming well during presentation … thkx to it …keke … but then, my inner self keeps telling me that i have not done well in the presentation … wat a contradiction .. haha … i m alwaz like tat .. dun know why alwaz feel regret of something which is alreadi finished … sigh … I reali hope tat my grp can enter into the final of the Projects day … there r onli 12 grp be chosen into final … reali pray tat my grp is one of them .. haha …looking 4ward the result .."_^

Today, i went out today…. when i wanted to come back to boarding skul … tat time was 6 pm …. i waited for a bus for 20 min … sigh …. so poor the service … then , the bus finalli came …. then, i thought tat the bus would be taking me 40 min to reach my place …. i decided to take a nap in the bus .. but i still remained sub- conscious la … i would suddenly wake up and looked around … when i realized tat i still have not arrived my destination yet, i would fall asleep again …. haha … i was so tired tat moment …. to my horror when i woke up, i realized tat i was in an unknown place … oh my god !!! i missed the station in front of my skul ….arrrrrr!!!!! when i juz realized, i alreadi reached a bus terminal … wat the >_<  then i had to wait for a bus for a U turn to my skul ….sigh …for 20 min … aikz ….then, the bus finally came … this time, i was not falling asleep … i was alert this time …. nevertheless, i still din observe tat i missed the station AGAIN !!!!! Sigh …… i had to stop the bus at somewhere else … and make a U- turn back again … wat the … poor me ….. i reached boarding skul at 8pm !!! could not enjoy my dinner at boarding skul alreadi … sigh … no matter wat ….. i think i made quite gd use of the time …. hee … and had a fruitful trip … nvm la …. juz next time be careful 6 "_^

After a discussion with Mr. Hon, i found tat his harangue is very convincing and has knocked me from my own bad and virtual dream. Frankly, before the discussion, i was really an inferior person without much confidence to myself. I juz could not forget my sweet past memories when i alwaz succeeded with not much pain and stress. And, i juz onli have the negative thoughts … which bother me a lot and … make me feel tense and my brain juz could not function well (my brain became like a stone !) … I commit tat i spent loz of time in front of my study table … but with most of the time i had been thinking of nonsense and negative thinking like "will i be able to pass the test after several hours of effort i have spent?" " will i get as low mark as before" "will i be able to get pass this time" "am i going to enter JC" ….. sigh … i am really angry to myself cause these thoughts (after discussion with Mr Hon) i found that they onli distract me from studies and i juz could not concentrate with them stuffing in my mind … in other words, i have spending my time in useless way … not in a fruitful way … sigh … i am feeling remorseful now …..
After discussion with Mr Hon, I found that i juz cannot cont. llke this. … if not bad consequences will be following with this … (imaginable) … Now, I juz have to relax myself … relax … relax .. relax .. dun get urself tense up , JJ … I like one of the quotes by Mr Hon …. to relax, we must reach "wang wo" stage. Wah … I am struck by this quote … i recalled back … wat i had been doing these time … is not on my own will … i am "motivated somehow" to do something …now, i juz have to "lose myself" without thinking my mission … juz try to enjoy anything when i am doing something ….. now, the actions tat i will be taking is tat i will be studying like reading a martial art story book ….. this is really useful, i think … cause without test/ exam in mind, i can read the text book with relax manner … and my mind can be spaced out for the knowledge tat i am going to absorb in ….. hee , this will work … Besides, be self confident …. i know tat i am reali reali inferior in front of my competitors in skul … i m trying to be confident as i can … but i juz can’t do it …. sigh … not solution yet … have to read some books to find solution …. "_^ not matter wat, i going to masuk HC college … i vow 4 it with Naruto & Rock Lee spirit >_<