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Sigh … After visiting the President’s Residence, i had alreadi planned to do pack-up in my room 2day. So sad .. there r so many things awaiting 4 me to pack. The worst thing is tat i hav to tolerate the dust!! I hate dust very much. Hee… my nose is alwaz alergic to dust. As a result, my nose was sneezing while i was packing. Sigh … so terrible!

Visiting the President’s residence is not quite fun actuali, haha! There is a long way to reach the istana. The hot sun kept blazing causing me to sweat along the way. Haha, but still quite ok lar. Along the way, there was still blowing of weak wind. The most unfortunate thing was tat the President never appeared, sigh. Actuali my most intention to visit the istana was to shake his hand. Haha, it seemed tat i din hav the golden opportunity liao lar. Forget it. ^_^ Later, i hav to find more boxes to pack my stuff. Later got to suffer again. Cry…>_<

Happy Halloween
Happy Deepavali
Selamat Hari Raya!!!!

Tomolo i will be going to the President’s residence. Hee .. so excited!! Dun know wat will be happening there. I can fancy tat i will be shaking hand wif the President. Muahaha…

So, for the subject combination, i have alreadi made up my mind! After consultation wif my auntie and uncle, my subject choices are once more perceived to be good. Hee… They are H2 Bio, Chem, Maths and H1 Malay and Chinese Lit & Lang. The reasons tat i have chosen Malay and Chi are tat i wanna to have winning cards in my hand and wanna to correct the imbalance (cause i think tat i will not be doing very well in the H2 subjects in the future). I think they will definitely pull my grade. My auntie and uncle also agreed wif me and thought tat this will be a good plan though Malay is not an important subject. Besides, since i have not made my mind in choosing wat field to enrol in, so my subject combinations enable me to choose in almost all field .. so no worry now. Haha ^_^

Today, after studying the Chinese for the whole day, i played basketball in the court again "alone".Hee. Everybody has gone for their own business - play PC games lar, go outing lar, blablabla. Suddenli, appeared one lad who wanna to join me in playing basketball. I let him to accompany me lor. After playing for a few minutes, he suggested to play a match wif me. While we were playing tensely, he accidentally hit me on my face. Ouch … so pain. I suddenli found tat one corner of my eye was bleeding. Aikx … The most lucky thing was tat my spec is Ok … though it was spoiled a little bit. Thkx godness. The spec costs 300 something. Actuali, my spared spec has broken since two weeks ago, i think. So, i din have any spared spec to wear. It was quite risky in some sense.

Sigh … dun know when to go back home. My external mentor suddenli replied tat the grp can not do the experiment in the early Nov. Sigh … planned everything, suddenli appear this problem! Got to plan everything all over again. Sigh .. having a project is not a good idea, but i think aiyya never mind lar. It is better than those who dun have anything. Haha …^_^ Hapi holidays, Hapi Deeparaya!!

Aikz … rainy day. The storm is so violent and the thunder is so loud tat my ears almost go deaf. Haha.
Today received a call from my parents. They asked me to go home as soon as possible. Sigh … do they think that i dun wan to go home meh?!! I "hen bu de" wanna to leave spore. There are too many things tat i cannot leave behind at the moment. They cannot juz demand as they will. I have difficult situation here either. I still got o level exam, still got festival of sport, still got further research for my project, still got to plan my "future education", still got many things to pack up…blablabla..sigh..how to go back??!!
Today, during assembly, the headmaster came to talk wif us about the subject combinations in JC. Sigh.. i was muddled head??!! Still, i got more or less understanding of the whole curriculum lar. But, i m in dilemma at the moment > dun know wat to choose for my subject combinations. Besides the three fixed subjects (General Paper, Projects Work, MOther tongue), there are 4 more subjects. I have thought of taking Maths, Bio, Chem and Malay* (as contrasting subject)!!! In my opinion, i think everyone should have their own strength in their subject combination rite?! So, i think i have been doing quite well in Malay. Tat makes me to make this choice. At least it will push down my MSG or something. There is also another combination in my mind: Maths, Chem, Phy and Malay/Econ. I have been thinking of whether to take bio or not. My bio is not bad. But, i dun think i may be able to cope wif it??!! i m not sure. One thing is certain is tat i love bio but my result sucks!  Sigh, i will discuss wif my guardian first lar, consult them better than make decision by myself.
Talk so much about subject combinations. I still dun know if i can get into the college side or not??!!! Sigh … hope in the end can get thru ..hee^_^

For these few days, i kept receiving back my papers. As overall (in term of mean grade), it is still satisfying i can say. But there r a few subjects very disappointing. There r also some subjects meet my expectation ^_^. For those weak subjects, I reali felt deeply hurt. It seems like I have reali disappointed my teachers and myself too. For a specific subject, I knew tat i had not done very well for the first paper. Then, I would try to remedy the situation by doing my extreme best in paper 2. However in the end, the paper 2 turned out to be same as paper 1. Sigh … how come ar ? Nvm lar .. let bygones be bygones.

From my observation in these few days, i think singaporean students are reali reali damn good. I admit tat i m not compatible wif them. Since i came to singapore to study, i reali have had a dun-know-wat shock! It seems like i m being belittled till i even have the thought tat I feel inferior to myself. Sigh. Now, I can feel the feeling of those poor students. It reali hurts. Once i study here, i find tat i m always at the back of others and always look at the back of others onli. WHy can’t i juz be in front of others? This reali made my to ponder over it. In the past, I was not wat i m today. I was very very confident, calibre to certain extent, had good result blablabla. It totally turns out indifferent here. Mr Hon is rite. I hav not been able to put aside my past achievement yet. I hav not totally adapted to the environment here. Therefore, i m not doing quite well here.

Besides, i also observe tat singapore students never satisfy wif their own result. I m reali wandering why do they keep demanding more marks even when they hav alreadi got distinction??!! I will be very contended if i hav gotten their results. I will in seventh heaven if i hav gotten as high as their marks. But then, it is not tat i dun care about my result and dun wan to raise the grade. It is ………. speechless! It is juz tat i m not very fond of their actions. May be i m jealous .. i admit tat. Sigh … wat i alwaz tell myself is tat "Dun care about others. I m not competiting wif them. I m onli care about my own result. Watever results they hav gotten do not concern me." I feel better in this way. Cause i know tat i m not be able to compete wif them, and i only wanna to do my best.

The issue of whether i will be entering the college side is still an unknown to me. I hav calculated the "result" which is estimated by me. I think the calculated ‘result’ hav no mistakes. Even there is, I hav also included the "worst case" where every subject is reduced one grade. I may alreadi meet the criteria to enter the college side. It may not??!! So, I can onli adopt the "wait and see" policy. ^_^

So boring ….

It seems ridiculous tat I cannot enjoy myself after the exam. I cannot find anything interesting to play wif … except reading books. Lolz ..sigh … it seems like i get used to the hectic life … it has caused me for forgetting how to enjoy ..haha.

It is still ok lar. Reading books is a pleasure to me. Sometimes, i do play some PC games. Then, i will go down to the basketball court and play basketball "alone" (cause everybody is spamming their own PC games > dun wanna to play sport liao) {sign}.

So angry 2day. Somebody in the boarding skul, for the sake of inserting his own "fish" into the fridge, threw my ice cream into the bin. Wat the … I straight away go after him and argue wif him. He told me tat he has got several ice cream in the fridge and gave the excuse tat he thought tat one is him one wor … Wat the … Then, i went away without further arguing wif them. Anyway, i have eaten almost 3 quarters of the ice cream. SO, for me, it does not matter lar. But then later, he said tat he wanna to compensate me. I said never mind but he insisted. SO, he gave me 3 dolars??!! Anyway, though i din wan initially, i accepted it in the end. ^_^

Enjoying myself …

Long time since dun-know-when I have not enjoyed myself so hapi ..hee.
For the whole day, i have been playing PC games tat i have missed so much, watching those CDs tat somebody has watched them be4 while i was not wif them watching the CDs, reading those favourite story books tat hav stacked so high (dun have time to read them mah ..hee).
Wow ..shuang ar!! May be i m in a holiday mood now??!! not sure … but still got to go back to skul.^_^

The moment tat i have been waiting for so long …. THe exam has finali come to an end. THkx goodness that the Malay paper was put forward, so i dun have to wait for another day…hee. The Malay paper is quite fine for me. Most part of the paper is easy, a minor is diff (very confusing).

Juz now got back my chem paper. hee … Everybody got to know their result yesterday while i juz got back mine. haha … this is one of the exam strategies lar ..dun let emotion controls u .. if not u will DIE in the next paper.. so, i requested yesterday if i can check the paper the next day. The result for chem paper is quite satisfying .. no grumble ..it is A1, yes! I made it … (tears rolling down) …

Finali can let my hair down. I promise tat I will enjoy myself to the extreme …hee. But, the most terrifying part is not over yet — the return of papers … yee .. so afraid. My mood to enjoy is gonna to diminish into half liao ..haha ..^_^

Jus finished maths paper 2 test. It is kinda ok. But, there r still got some Qs left blank ..shame ! shame ..hee … But the whole paper is quite ok ler. I have applied everything i know inside. I keep telling myself to be calm and dun be afraid. And I … was reali calm during the exam. Yes! Because in my opinion, when u dun have any fear in doing something, u will do it in plain sailing, and u will accomplish it very fast, and with a happy hearted either.

I think i may use paper 2 to remedy those marks tat i have lost in paper 1!!??? I m not sure. But i m sure tat i have reali tried my very best to finish the paper. And, i have been doing exercises non stop for the past 3 days. Thkx to the skul … i have holiday on Mon. This enabled me to do more exercises. Cause i know tat i m a weak student. I always carry this strong perception: if people use up 1 hr, I use 3 hrs to study; if people use up 1 day to revise, then i spend 3 days to study; cause if people can succeed with their no. of hrs spent, then i can reach my success in the end either though i juz spend more time than others. It is anyway making no harm to me as i have loz of time. I may as well spend the time well. It is better than those who spend it casually.

Exam almost comes to an end in next 2 days. I still got Chi paper 2 tomolo and Malay papers the next day. I still cannot relax now. Cause if i relax, the result will be very terrible ..haha … but kinda jealous to thouse who r alreadi enjoying themselves. Aiks ..sigh ..nvm ..after the exam, i will enjoy myself in an EXTREME way …muahaha … tat s wat i promise myself. ^_^

Yesterday, I went to play basketball wif my sec 2 friends … as usual. We also feel itchy and are very desperate to play basketball every weekend. Haha … it is usually I who initiate the basketball game or they invite me. I like basketball so much …dun know why. I find tat i m more energetic after playing basketball for 2 hrs. And, i m able to study well after playing basketball. My shooting skill is becoming more and more "sharp". Everytime, (hee boasting), the ball will definitely "zhong"!!!! Haha, this will surely boast my confidence. Got a sense of satisfaction …^_^ Today, it is raining all the day …sigh .. initially, i decided to play basketball after a whole day of study as a reward to myself. Sigh … this does not come true lar of course … must think of something else to reward myself in another way. Actuali, be4 we start to do something rite, if we have something (reward) is awaiting for us, we will do the job better and in a more serious manner. But, the reward should not be too extreme of course, if not it will bring setback 2 us. cheers ^_^